It was five months ago to the day I decided to change my entire life. I was so sick of being fat and all the consequences that go along with being.. well
obese. I hate that word. It makes me cringe every single time I hear it. Or say it. Or type it.
I remember stepping on the scale and being afraid to look down. When I saw the numbers, I just laid in my bed and sobbed. It was absolutely pathetic. I was mad at the scale. I was mad at myself. I was mad at food. I was mad at everything in my life. But there was no one to blame but myself. I put myself in this position and I am the only one that can get my out of it.
And I’ll tell you what, these last five months I’ve worked my booty off. I’ve done some physical things, I never thought I’d be able to do (but my boobs still won’t allow me to do jumping jacks, I don’t blame them). I’ve definitely tested my will power (Who in their right mind denies frozen custard with their best friend?) and my mind is in a completely different place. I truly feel I have a whole different outlook on life.
Just a side note: Yesterday I had to go to a company meeting, where as goofy as it sounds, they wanted us to learn a line dance to the song “Happy” by Pharrell Williams. Everyone else was too shy/uncomfortable, but me and this other chick got up, learned the routine and stood in the front while everyone else stood towards the back while they recorded us dancing. They are going to play it in front of large amounts of people at upcoming company events. I stood in the front. Dancing. In front of a video recorder. Now, I’ve never been shy or embarrassed about anything, but I know damn well I would not have done that five months ago. Anyways….
I had to do my monthly weigh in and I just wanted to compare the picture I took that first day in January to the picture I took yesterday. I couldn’t believe it. The scale has told me I’ve lost 40 pounds, but those photos are worth a thousand words.
I obviously have a ton of work left and a whole lifetime full of healthy habits to make. But, today I’m feeling proud and accomplished. Five months ago there is no way I could have said anything good about myself. Starting today I’m making a challenge with myself. Each day I have to look into the mirror and tell myself something good about me. I’m not sure what I’m going to tell myself today, but it will probably be along the lines of “Is it hot in here? Or is it just you?”
Leave a comment, tell me what YOU tell yourself when you look in the mirror?