A Nutty Love Story

I’m a little crazy sometimes. Who me? Say it isn’t so.

No, but for real. I’m kinda silly. {Hence why my best friend growing up called me Silly and still does to this day..}

I like to make people laugh, and most importantly, I like to make myself laugh. And I think I’m funny. One day I made a Snapchat story dedicated to my love of Nutella. I shared it on my personal facebook page, but I thought I would share it on here, if anyone would like to see and get a few laughs out of it. I mean, it made my Grandma laugh and she still loves me. So here it is.

I hope this post finds you all doing well! If you’d like to follow me on snapchat and keep up with all my crazy shenanigans you can follow me at sararuiz3!

Lots of Love.

Summertime Favorites

I can hardly believe that it is already September! Well, by now we are more than two weeks into September. Summer vacation has come and gone and now everyone is back in school. Anyway,  I have a few favorites from this summer that I wanted to share with you guys. So lets jump right into it.

Favorite Beverage

Passion Tea Lemonade

Starbucks passion tea lemonade with raspberry syrup. This summer I’ve been slightly obsessed with these, I can’t even handle it. There is a lot of sugar in these, not going to lie, so my obsession needs to be put to a quick stop. But it was definitely my drink of choice for summer of 2015. I’ll always remember you passion tea, always.

Favorite Makeup Product

CC+ cream

I have been in love with this “Your Skin But Better CC+ cream” from It Cosmetics. I’ve heard crazy good reviews on this product for the longest time and a few months ago I decided to give it a try and I’m so incredibly glad that I did. Everyday that I’ve been wearing a full face of makeup, this is what I’ve been wearing. It really has great coverage and covers up any blemishes I may have, but still leaves a natural finish to the skin. It has SPF of 50+, which I really appreciate for these summer months! I also really enjoy the packaging. I feel like a lot of makeup products are so expensive and you can’t use them all completely up, because of the packaging. It angers me, since its such a waste of money, but this one is in a squeeze tube and has a pump, so you can really get every drop out of this baby!  I can’t say enough good things about this product!

Favorite Beauty Splurge

manicure

In all of my years of existence, I’ve only been into a nail salon once. And that was to get a full set of nails put on for my senior year prom. Other than that, I’ve only ever painted my nails and toenails myself. I’m constantly painting my toenails to make them look nice, but my nails, on the other hand {pun intended}, really need help. I work in a deli and nail polish doesn’t even last five minutes when I’m there. Whenever I have a weekend off I make a point to paint my nails so I can have nice looking nails for at least a few days. But, the beginning of the summer I had a week off of work and my first day off I hopped, skipped, and jumped my booty right over to a nail salon and went all out. I got a pedicure{my first ever!} and a full set with french tips. And it was the best thing, I swear, that I’ve ever done. My hands have never looked better. They lasted a long time and didn’t get ruined at work, either! So, I really can’t wait to get a new set put on sometime soon. I know it may not seem like a big deal to some people, but it may have been one of the highlights of my entire summer. {I don’t get out much….}

Favorite Summertime Event

tigers game

I bought my husband tickets to a Detroit Tigers game for his birthday. We made an entire day of it and it and we had such a fun time. We left the house pretty early to get a good parking spot downtown and then we just walked around. We got a few drinks and enjoyed the game. We sat right near first base. I told Daniel if a ball came our way, that it was up to him to protect both of us, but I almost got hit in face anyway {He was busy posting pictures on Facebook or something…famous last words}. I saw it coming towards us, but I lost it track of it while it was in the sky and it bounced off the corner of the empty seat right in front of me and, like, skimmed the top of my head. I’m just really glad I didn’t catch the ball with my forehead. I’m really thankful for that. The Tigers lost, but the experience was really fun anyway. And then we just drove around downtown and ended up MGM casino and ate a really nice dinner and lost money there {bummer..} And on the way home we got stuck in a really awful thunderstorm.. Okay, this is really sounding like a terrible experience. The Tigers lost, we lost money at the casino, thunderstorm… but it actually was a really fun day and I wouldn’t have traded it for anything.

Favorite Relaxation Technique

Adult Coloring Book

I’m  the type of person who has constantly been the proud owner of a coloring book, no matter what age I am. Whenever I’m in the dollar store I see a cool coloring book and I’m like, “Oh! Better pick this one up!” I just really like coloring, because its relaxing and takes my mind off of everything. So when I saw this ADULT COLORING BOOK at TJ MAXX, I was like, “NO WAY JOSE!!!!” It has different designs and patterns and I’ve been really enjoying it. I bought a pack of wooden coloring pencils to go along with it and I’ve been coloring a little bit each night since I bought it. I put on my pajamas, light a candle and take a few minutes to think about nothing and just color. And I love it. The cover says that it is “Anti- Stress Art Therapy for Busy People”. So no more Care Bears and Hello Kitty coloring books for me for a while!

Those a just few things that I really found myself loving these past few months! I hope everyone had a great summer. Leave me a comment and let me know something exciting you did over this summer! Hope you all are doing well!

Lots of love.

I’m BACKKK

Hey guys.

It’s been quite awhile. Again.

I’ve kind of vanished off of all social media, to be honest. I haven’t kept up with this blog lately. I haven’t posted on Instagram in weeks, which is really unheard of. I haven’t updated my “Funny Fat Girl” facebook page, either. But, here I am, I’m still alive and kicking.

I’ve been having some “medical issues” and working a lot lately. And my days off of work,  I’ve been going to doctors appointments, dentist appointments, and getting blood work done and a bunch of other fun things.  I’ve been suffering from really bad migraines. I make it through my work day and come home and just lay around and sleep. And wake up and do it all over again. Its really no way to live. I felt terrible emotionally, physically, mentally.  So, I went to the doctor and they set me up on this new medication and when I started taking it, it made everything even worse. And that went on for a few weeks, until I went back to the doctor and got everything straightened out with the medication.

Anyway,  I’m starting to feel better. I feel like today is the first day in over the last few months that I have had off of work and have had absolutely nothing that I HAVE to do. Which feels amazing. {Which, also, means I am not leaving the house or my pajamas} I’m starting to get back into some healthy habits again. I went down a terrible spiral for a little bit. But, its time to get back on track and do what I know I’m suppose to do! I’ve worked out at home a few times this last week and next week I’ll start going back to the gym with my husband.

And as for this blog, I do have big plans for it. I have so many good ideas for blog posts that I’ve been writing down every time I think of something, so I don’t forget. I will have AT LEAST two posts every week from now on. Perhaps more, but no less than two. I promise. Girl Scout’s honor. {Perhaps is my favorite word at the moment. Perhaps, I’m like a 10 year old.}

That’s all I have for you guys today. I’m back and this blog is back and it’s going to be better than ever. Yas!

Lots of Love.

May Favorites

A new segment I wanted to start including on my blog are monthly favorites. I thought it would be a fun, interesting way to show you guys everything that I’m currently obsessing over. So, let’s get right into it!

 Favorite Shoes

Oliva Miller sandals

I bought these sandals the beginning of the month at a store called VF outlet. They are by a brand called Olivia Miller. I really like how they look on my feet. I love that they go around the ankle, but it has the stretchy material, instead of a buckle. That way I can just slide them right on and run out the door. They look really cute whether you pair them with shorts, capris, or long pants. And I’ve got several compliments on them! And the best part is that they were only about $12!

Favorite Television Series

Scandal TV series

Oh my gosh, what can I even say about Scandal? My husband and I started watching the series on Netflix the end of April. And we flew through all of the episodes! We would come home from work and watch two, three, four episodes a night. Yes! It was that good! Netflix had the first three seasons available and the fourth season was still on television. So, we bought each episode individually from Amazon prime, until we got the most recent five episodes that were free on On-Demand on Charter Communications. And then the last 2 episodes we had to wait and watch them on TV when they came on. That is how obsessed we were with that show, that we watched the entire series in less than a month. It was really, really good and ended so perfectly.  I cannot wait for the fifth season! If you haven’t seen this show, I highly recommend it!

Favorite Movie

pitch-perfect-2-cast-poster

I am loving Pitch Perfect 2! The first one is in my top favorite movies of all time and I’ve probably watched it about a hundred times. But, the second movie is even better! I was worried that it was going to be one of those movies that they show the only funny scenes in the trailer, but it’s not! The movie was hilarious, I was laughing so hard I was crying within the first 5 minutes of it starting. I went to see it with my aunt and cousins and I’m planning on going to see it again, because it is just that good!

Favorite Fragrance

fragrence

I actually have two favorites this month. And that’s because I like to mix both of these together to create one wonderful,  majestic scent! They both smell really good separately, but together they are just awesome. Lilly Pulitzer Squeeze is a fresh, citrus, and sweet scent.  Gap Sunshine smells fresh, kind of floral and smells like straight up summer. And together they smell like the perfect summertime fragrance. The only thing I don’t really love about them is that they have a staying power of a fragrance mist, but when I use them together they last a bit longer. I just don’t expect them to last a whole day.

Favorite Makeup Item

Lorac Heartbreaker

I bought the Lorac Alter Ego Heartbreaker eye shadow pallete from Ulta at the beginning of the month and since then I’ve used it almost everyday that I wear makeup. I love every color in the pallete, but I absolutely love the lightest brown and the cream color. I use those two colors every single day. I just think it is has perfect colors for a summertime look! I absolutely love that mint green color and have nothing in my collection that is comparable. I believe this pallete is only available at Ulta and it retails for $24.

Favorite Skincare Item

Neutrogena Hydro Boost

At first I was really hesitant to buy the Neutrogena Hydro Boost Water Gel. I had ran out of my Aveeno face moisturizer and I didn’t really love it to repurchase it.  I was just using up random moisturizers samples that I had while I researched what kind I should buy. I found a couple really good reviews on Youtube about this new Neutrogena one and I’m so happy that I decided to pick it up. It was on the pricey side, especially for a drugstore moisturizer. It retails for about$18. However, this could last you a really long time, because you really don’t need that much to cover your face. In fact, if you use too much of it, it takes a really long time to soak into your skin. It is made with water, so it is very liquidy. And if you are anything like me, make sure you tighten the cap on as soon as you are finished with it. I’m a giant ditz and I accidentally elbowed it off of my vanity and it went everywhere. So I will have to purchase one a lot sooner than I was planning on. But it is worth every penny. My face has looked so much more hydrated and soft. I also haven’t had any breakouts since using this, because it doesn’t clog my pores. I’m obsessed with this stuff and would recommend it to anyone needing a really good, hydrating face moisturizer.

 

Favorite Snack

pretzel crisps

I have been loving these Pretzel Crisps! Those are my favorite flavors of the moment. I love the Honey Mustard & Onion flavor and I just recently picked up the Tuscan Three Cheese flavor and really like that one as well! I just love having these as a little snack by themselves or dipped in hummus. I’ve always loved crunchy, savory things. These really help curb that craving. I’d rather have a handful of these pretzel crisps than eating chips! They have a bunch of other flavors, but I’ve really been liking these two the best!

Favorite App

snapchat

Snapchat. Oh, snapchat. I’m slightly obsessed. I love making funny stories on there. Sometimes I don’t even realize my story is like 400 seconds. I think its really fun and I love taking funny pictures or making hilarious videos. But lets be serious, its mostly just me lip syncing crazy songs and being goofy.  My username is Sararuiz3 if you want to follow me on there. I love watching everyone’s stories as well, so hit me up on Snapchat!

And that’s about everything that I am currently obsessing over the last month! Let me know what you have been loving lately and I hope you all have an awesome weekend!

Lots of Love.

The Hardest Six Months of My Life

I’ve had a lot of hard and difficult things happen in my lifetime. Way too many, actually. I have a hard time thinking positive, just because I know something bad is bound to happen soon. That’s just the way my life plays out.

I’ve also had the heartache of losing a crazy amount of people in my short 20-something lifetime. But absolutely nothing has hurt me as bad as losing my grandpa six months ago. It was so sudden. I didn’t have a chance to say goodbye. I never thought in a million years we would lose him so soon. He was the best man I have ever met in my life. And he was gone. So unexpectedly.

I spent months crying everyday on my way to  work. And being depressed. And sad. And trying to hide it the best I could. I couldn’t even see or hear an ambulance without having an anxiety attack and crying.

It’s all part of the grieving process. And I know that. I know it takes time. And I know that it never truly gets better, you just find a way to get through the day.

The day he passed, I came home and stayed awake writing a speech to read at my his funeral. I owed it to him. People deserved to know how I felt about him. I still read it from time to time and it makes me feel better. So, I thought I would share it here.

I can’t believe right now is the time I have to get up here and talk about my Grandpa. I thought I would have much more time, and many more memories to share with you all. But, I do have a few things I wanted to write down and share with you today.

When I think back to my childhood, 99% of my memories involve my grandparents. They have been there for me for everything. I remember when I was really little I would go outside and my papa would push me on the swing set and catch me while I jump off the second story of the play house. I always looked forward to going up north to Tawas and spending time with them every summer. Sometimes I had to go with one of my cousins, but secretly I loved going up there with them all by myself. My grandpa even took me out on the big fishing boat with him a few times. We never caught anything, but we watched while other people did. I loved when we got to ride into town, and one night on our trip we would always get to have a campfire! Those are memories that will forever be instilled in my mind and a city that will always have a special place in my heart.

It was around that same time when I was diagnosed with Perthes disease, a disease that affected my left hip that left me in leg braces and what felt like thousands of doctors’ appointments. We had to make trips to Ann Arbor frequently and my grandpa was the one that drove me every single time. We would count the golf courses on the way to know how close we were getting. There’s seven, by the way. I remember I would have to sit in a wheelchair and I loved when he would push me, because he would always push me fast! And before we left the hospital, he would always make sure I would have a brand new sticker for my sticker book. And sometimes they even took me to Big Boy for lunch! I always was extra good so maybe we could go there to eat!

It was during this time he bought a lawn mower for me to ride around the yard with. I know it was probably for all the kids, but he always had a way of making me feel special and so I thought he got it for only me. It was also around this same time they built a brand new sunroom onto their house. I remember just flying around the corners of the house and doing figure 8s while my mom was putting clothes on the outside line to dry. I remember just a singing and dancing away when all the sudden my gum fell out of my mouth and went straight into the gearshift hole. I started frantically searching for my gum, and the next thing I remember is my mom yelling my name and BOOM right into the brand new sun porch. I started bawling because I knew grandpa was going to kill me. And he came running out of the house, I’ve never seen an old man run so fast in my life. I was crying because I thought I was in some serious trouble, but they were worried because they thought I had been injured. They weren’t mad at all, but I’m sure it helped that the sunroom wasn’t even damaged.

My grandpa was a hardworking man. He took pride in everything he did. He was stubborn and bossy. If grandpa told you to do something, you did it right then. “God dammit.” And you better do it right. In fact, while looking through my pictures for today we came across some from my open house. He wasn’t a main person in any of the photos. You could, however, find him in 99% of the pictures running around the background with his mouth open and his finger pointed telling someone what to do. He was able to fix anything and would always have the perfect tool you needed. I knew if I needed something fixed, I could take it to grandpa and after he was done with it, it would be better than brand new. I knew when he told me, “come with me..” that I got to go play with him in his workshop! He was honest, didn’t take crap from no one and he knew everything about everything. And if he didn’t he would find out for you. His favorite lines were “You know.. you ought to..” and “turn on that lamp, will ya?”

I remember when I was little I spent a lot of time over my grandparent’s house. Every time I came into the house he would say “Hello there Sary” and pat me on the back while I gave him a hug. I always felt the love right when I walked into that house. You could tell how much he loved my grandma when he looked at her. From a young age I knew that was what true love looked like. I didn’t even think it was gross when he patted her butt every time he walked passed her! He was what a husband should be and more. And growing up I knew I wanted to be with a man that treated me the way my grandpa treated my grandmother. And I did. How relieved I was when Daniel visited my grandparents for the first time and they told me they loved him right away. He loved Daniel as his own grandson and I’m so incredibly grateful Daniel was able to meet and love grandpa as much as I did. I feel an incredible loss for even my unborn children. My whole life I’ve had this image in my head where I come to visit my grandparents with my family and have my children love and play with my grandpa just as I did when I was a child. I thought that I would have time, I thought we had many more wonderful years to spend with grandpa.

Last summer, I came home from work with excruciating stomach pains. I needed to go to the hospital and when I couldn’t get ahold of my mom, I called grandma and grandpa and they came in no time at all. I was in so much pain that I was losing conciseness, but I remember waking up and seeing my grandpa running a red light and practically squealing his tires around the corner to get me to the hospital faster. I always knew he was a bad ass. He even took me to a few of my doctors’ appointments then, just like old times. I had this appointment to get x-rays at 11 am one day. We thought it would be a pretty fast visit, but it ended up taking quite a long time with the tests I had to get done. I glanced at the clock and saw that it was after 1 and I frantically told the nurse we needed to hurry because my grandpa missed his lunch time! So when we left he told me how hungry he was and if I wanted to stop and get something, go home, or have grandma make us something at their house. I was starving, but I told him I would just go home and he said “Okay… nope” and turned so fast into Big Boy. Just like old times. I remember he got this little tiny sandwich and a big, huge chocolate milkshake. He asked if I wanted some of his shake, when I told him no, he said “good.. I wasn’t going to share with you anyway.” I thought it was hilarious he didn’t even finish his tiny sandwich, but he didn’t waste one drop of that shake!

I have the ultimate grandparents. The kind you only see in movies. The kind of grandparents everyone wishes they had, but don’t. He was the greatest grandpa I could have ever asked for, and I’m not saying that only because he is my grandpa, but because it is the truth. I wasn’t able to tell him everything I wanted to, but he knew how much I loved him. And I never had any doubts that he loved me, even if I had to be the first one to say it. He has always made me strive to be a better person and to take great pride in everything that I do in life. I always wanted to make my grandpa proud and I know that I did. I could keep going on and on about all the wonderful things that my grandfather was and did, but it wouldn’t be enough. I just feel incredibly blessed to have him as my grandfather and will miss him every single day of my life.

I spent the last several months just being depressed and not doing a whole lot to improve my life. But, I (re)started this whole weightloss journey on January 4th and I’m doing pretty well, if I do say so myself. I remember my grandpa being so proud of me when I first starting losing weight. And if he were still here, he would most definitely be giving me a lecture for giving up on that.

I hope this post finds you all doing well. I’m getting back to normal, I promise. It just took me awhile. I’ve got a lot of great ideas for this blog and I’m ready to start writing and being that “Funny Fat Girl” again.
Lots of love.